On my way to see Paramore tonight I got a ticket when I got off in Bessemer to grab some Taco Bell.

A ticket. And you know what? I really wasn't even going that fast? 59 in a 45. If he isn't lying.
I was furious to the point of tears with the stupid Bessemer police department and their retarded end of the month quotas. After he left, I cussed a bit. I think I surprised Danielle.


Paramore was fantastic. Really, really great.
Except for right there near the end, some people (that I actually knew, unfortunately) decided they would start a mosh pitt. This pushed me into the group beside us several times...this large man who was part of that group and who was dating a girl he was much to old to be dating started cussing me out and talking about how I was stepping on his girlfriends broke foot...which she was jumping on, btw.

And so I not so kindly informed him that it was not me and it was not my problem.


I tell you all this to tell you two things.

1. It would seem that out of somewhere I have developed a bit of an anger problem. Perhaps it's the stress. There's a lot of that, atm. Regrdless...it's not too good. I need that to be resolved.

and

2. I'm pretty sure I've talked about this before, but I have a tendency to lean towards the negative....I'm a pessimist by nature. I blame it on my family...which only proves my point, actually. But I hate it. I hate that I can have the coolest night ever with an awesome friend and then get so sucked in and bogged down by the little negatives that I can't even talk about the good stuff.


There's this website I heard about.... http://www.acomplaintfreeworld.org and it works off this thing called the --21 day no complaint experiment--

The basic gist is that they have these bracelets that they wear...and they work towards 21 days free of complaints or any negative talk at all. If you slip up, you switch the bracelet to the other hand and you start all over.
The whole point is to get you thinking about what your thinking...and feeling...and in turn, saying...It allegedly teaches you ways to curb those negative thoughts. And also, to begin thinking of solutions to problems that arise immediately as opposed to venting and stressing over them.

The website itself is kinda hokey...and almost seems to me like one of those churches just out to get paid. But I think the idea is pretty novel. And awesome. And I've read some pretty cool responses of people who have completed the 21 days.

I may not buy the bracelets off the website...but I may give this a go. Why not?

Tomorrow....GRE. Study study study. All day long.
I'll be glad when it's in the past.


I love you all. Sweet dreams.